my long break

today will be the 7th day and officially the last day before gg back to work. bleah.
anyway the first 2 days were mc given by the gynae. we had a slight scare coz i was spotting quite badly. i was praying so hard all the way to the gynae that the taxi driver prob heard me aloud. ha. it was a HUGE relief when the gynae announced that i could open my eyes and see the heartbeat for my self. farnie coz the nurses asked why dont you want to see the scan for the heartbeat . i mean like DUH. scared lah. we were talking it through all through the wait with the what ifs and the what nots. i was almost in tears when the gynae said baby was doing well. i cant imagine when i deliver the baby, i prob will be an emotional wreck haha.

anyway altho dr said he'd rather not us go coz i was spotting, we still went ahead with phuket reassuring all that we would take extra care. And extra care we took. We did absolutely nothing except hardcore tanning by the beach( with my baby covered well) , napping in the afternoons ,having long meals just so i could have that extra rest from walking. We hardly bought stuff unless it was a case of happen to see or find. And we watched at least 6 good movies in the comfort of the hotel room. And of course, Grand Slam both finals and soccer most matches. That will be at least 10 hours spent on sports appreciation. And I finished 2 good books at the beach. Its prob one of my best hols only because hubz was very patient about the whole arrangement, no walking, no late nights and lots of breaks in between walking. The only spoiler was my morning sickness. I had bouts of puking during the 4 days, but otherwise everything went well. I need another holiday soon...........

its back!

i've dug up the old books that were hastily stored away on that one dreadful afternoon and began my nightly reads. Not that i dun already know of what to eat , what to do ... but paranoia is driving me a little crazy. this is now my bedside read and this time round... im not skipping a single line esp the what ifs.........

morning sickness is back with a vengeance coupled with severe diarrhoea over the last few days making me almost insanely over the top with joy. call me crazy. but all the discomfort and puking is telling me that the baby is growing well. i remember telling frenz that my last bout of morning sickness will deter me from having another kid. Im taking it all back! the sleepness nights, the constant puking and indigestion......... im loving every moment of it.
we are both hopeful and have a good feeling that things will work out this time. although it seems at times that almost like an unspoken thought hovering between us, no matter what happens, we will always have each other.
this time round, we're embracing every minute of it and taking it one step at a time. so we decided we will go ahead with our plans and bring baby to his first trip to Phuket this Friday and we will come back for CNY with a cool tan.

my baby deserves more.............

im coming clean this time..... i'm pregs again and though it came as a welcoming surprise, im still feeling (very) anxious and paranoid. like who wouldn't.
went to see a new gynae today and he told us things we should have known previously of my condition. we have to be careful all the way to 18 weeks instead of the normal 12 weeks because i have a double uterus. i really want to curse and swear at our previous gynae for not giving us details so much so that we could have more careful then.
but anyway its a new start .... i contemplated not telling anyone till past the 18 weeks so that i can save the explaining should anything untoward happens again. but i decided and im writing this only because whoever reads this .......... i need your prayers for a strong and sticky baby. i promise to do all i can to protect the baby but it will depend on how the baby wants to stick. pls pls pray for me and the baby.

im still not telling unless you get to read this ;)