my prayer

Lord I’m asking for Your help To raise my newborn son, give me strength and guide me cause I know that You’re the one. That sent this angel to me, a little heaven here on earth, for now I know my place in life… I’m no longer who comes first. Once I had no answer as to why it is I’m here, but when I looked into my baby’s eyes…. it all became so clear. This little bit of heaven owns me, heart and soul and it’s You that sent him to me, a greater love I’ll never know. So take these rugged hands of mine, help me to understand, just what it is I need to do to raise this little man. Help me build a boy that knows it’s You that holds the key, to all that heaven holds for us. Show him Your love through me.

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about him

1. He’s sitting in front of the TV, what is on the screen?

Depends.... Sports mostly. Then Bikes. Then Tattoos

2. You’re out to eat; what kind of dressing does he get on his salad?

What Dressing?! He doesnt even eat vege

3. What’s one food he doesn’t like?

western food..only because i keep asking for it

4. You go out to the bar. What does he order?

jug of beer

5. Where did he go to high school?

shit. i forgot

6. What size shoe does he wear?

8-9

7. If he was to collect anything, what would it be?

bike magazines

8. What is his favorite type of sandwich?

he hates any type

9. What would this person eat every day if he could?

has no food peeves... but my guess char siew/ chicken rice

10. What is his favourite cereal?

so not into cereals

11. What would he never wear?

chelsea jersey

12. What is his favourite sports team?

Man U

13. Who will he vote for?

obama?

14. Who is his best friend?

me!

15. What is something you do that he wishes you wouldn’t do?

mess up his cupboard with my clothes

16. How many cities/countries has he lived in?

Singapore.

17. What is his heritage?

Hokkien

18. You bake him a cake for his birthday; what kind of cake?

chocolate . but i will buy it

19. Did he play sports in high school?

bball/badminton/soccer/netball as he claims hehe

20. What could he spend hours doing?

PS3

the aftermath

confinement aint so bad.... aside from recovery of the bottom, erratic bowel movements,interrupted sleep, etc etc ... im loving every moment of it .. only because im spending it with the loves of my life ............

*yawn*

1. Name one person who made you laugh last night?
as usual .. my farnie husband

2. What were you doing at 0800?
driving to work

3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
surfing aimlessly

4. What happened to you in 2006?
got married... cant remember any other significant events

5. What was the last thing you said out loud?
yeah right ....

6. How many beverages did you have today?
1 carton Peel Fresh Orange; 1 bottle of water chestnut ; 1 cup coke ; 1 cup orange punch ; 3 glasses of water

7. What color is your hairbrush?
wat brush ....

8. What was the last thing you paid for?
some milk bags i purchased online

9. Where were you last night?
at home watching olympics

10. What color is your front door?
Brown.

11. Where do you keep your change?
its strewn all over in hand bag

12. What’s the weather like today?
sux

13. What’s the best ice-cream flavor?
strawberry

14. What excites you?
my two boys .....

15. Do you want to cut your hair?
just cut after a long ten years?

16. Are you over the age of 25?
slightly ....

17. Do you talk a lot?
when i feel like it

18. Do you watch the O.C.?
used to

19. Do you know anyone named Steven?
a couple...

20. Do you make up your own words?
when i feel smart ... yes

21. Are you a jealous person?
depends

22. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘A’.
anthony

23. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘K’.
Kelvin

24. Who’s the first person on your received call list?
Dar?

25. What does the last text message you received say?
ok ... see ya in a while muacks

26. Do you chew on your straw?
always

27. Do you have curly hair?
yeah like perpetual

28. Where’s the next place you’re going to?
toilet .... haha

29. Who’s the rudest person in your life?
er... cant say ... she reads my blogs but she has got better over the years

30. What was the last thing you ate?
eclipse mint

31. Will you get married in the future?
er... not again i suppose

32. What’s the best movie you’ve seen in the past 2 weeks?
The Dark Knight

33. Is there anyone you like right now?
yeah ..... my colleagues

34. When was the last time you did the dishes?
cant remember

35. Are you currently depressed?
a little ... i need to pop soon

36. Did you cry today?
nah ... it takes alot for me to cry

37. Why did you answer and post this?
nothing to do

38. Tag 7 people who would do this survey.
er ... no frenz to tag

almost there!

we are almost there! this would prob be the longest one month ever. we are more anxious than the time it was one month to the wedding.
i cant wait to pop. i cant sleep .i cant eat well. i cant walk for long. i cant sit for long. i can bend down to pick things up. i cant see my own toes. i just cant wait!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but all is well and good with Cristian. i cant wait to see him.

and then i will have two boys to take care of ...... Blissssssssssss

more than halfway there

yeah! i am now 2/3 of the journey to having a baby boy!
i am currently obsessed with feeling my tummy at oddly hours to feel baby Cristian's movements. Only a mummy would understand the miracle of a baby moving inside of you ... not even a father :) but at least he has got the hang of it. i just randomly grab his hand over my tummy when baby Cristian is kicking. Well, he almost has a nightly habit of putting his hands on my tummy just to feel if baby is awake. Nice!

life is good

we finally passed the dreadful 16. i cant even bring myself to remember that fateful week. but anyway its been a long 17 weeks this time round and we pulled through with the help of lots of prayers and friends' and loved ones' blessings. We are so looking forward to expecting our first child in Aug / Sep. Its going to be a Leo baby! Family seems ecstatic and its helps to ease our anxiety until the arrival of our baby. It will be another week or 2 before we declare its officially past the risk period and i just cant bloody wait............... i need to shop for baby clothes and really start planning for the baby.
hubz felt a kick or two ... he claims. i've felt slight flutters in my tummy ... i think . so we aint that sure that's baby Cristian talking to us but we do know that baby is doing well coz of the constant cramps and backaches i feel on a daily basis. But i am so not complaining coz its a sure sign that Cristian is growing well with a vengeance! i had a super blonde moment when i mentioned to our gynae that i didnt have such symptoms the previous pregnancy and he was like " Baby wasnt growing what " hiaks .

so the pregnancy has almost taken over our life , work still goes on. Hubz is still busy with work and the bakery while work has taken a positive turn for me. Looks like life is looking good now .... and of coz it doesnt hurt to have male colleagues (read: wierd) writing blogs at their age
here goes one http://dwee-david.blogspot.com/

yippeeeeeee

tears of joy

now i know the true meaning of tears of joy. it was an unbelievably feeling of 'high' when we saw our baby kicking and twisting around. dr said baby's very active and doing well. he did very preliminary tests for down syndrome like measurement of nasal and neck width to show that bb was doing good. yippeee.... that was extremely comforting to know that baby is growing well with a vengeance. the late night coaxing and tummy rubbing have paid off! dr also declared that the risk is significantly lower now that we have entered the second trimester of the preganancy!
what was more amazing was the moment we stepped out of the room, i looked at hubz and went
me : did you see something?
hubz : yeah man . i tawt only i saw it
me : no no i saw a penis too!
hubz : yeah should be
okay maybe the gynae just wanted to be sure and told us he will only tell us the gender next week.
but of course it doesnt matter .... coz the baby will still be our most precious gift!

as always ... after every good news visit to the gynae, my morning sickness just seemed to disappear and we had a good meal of Din Tai Fung. *PURE BLISS*

In Loving Memory

Today marks the day when my first baby was to be born. As hubs says , we will have another baby in 6 months time, we should look forward and not dwell on the past. But i suppose its just not the same. This date will never be just another best friend's birthday, another rainy sunday or another uneventful day. It would be the day i was to receive my most precious gift. The only comfort i have is that we will be having another child soon to constantly remind me of the blessing i once took for granted for. I pray that our child in heaven will bless his sibling, our other child due in 6 months with good health in many years to come.....


A Child In Heaven



I have a child in Heaven
Taken to that special place
I thank the Lord for taking you there
Because of his amazing grace.

You never heard the words "hello,""goodbye"
Or "how I love you so"
Spoken from your Mother's heart
She is waiting here below

You were taken from me early
Newly forming inside of me
But I heard that tiny heart beating
But your face I would never see

There are many others just like you
That never lived on earth outside of their Mother
Some taken by God's hand, others not
But you are all with one another
It's impossible to understand God's plan at all times
Some things were just meant to be
He took you home to be with him
And perhaps He too spared me

But he also gave his comfort
When I allowed Him to do so
The grief was there, the tears still flowed
But there was peace I came to know

I have a child in Heaven
Who is in the Father's arms
A place of rest and comfort
Away from the world's harms

my long break

today will be the 7th day and officially the last day before gg back to work. bleah.
anyway the first 2 days were mc given by the gynae. we had a slight scare coz i was spotting quite badly. i was praying so hard all the way to the gynae that the taxi driver prob heard me aloud. ha. it was a HUGE relief when the gynae announced that i could open my eyes and see the heartbeat for my self. farnie coz the nurses asked why dont you want to see the scan for the heartbeat . i mean like DUH. scared lah. we were talking it through all through the wait with the what ifs and the what nots. i was almost in tears when the gynae said baby was doing well. i cant imagine when i deliver the baby, i prob will be an emotional wreck haha.

anyway altho dr said he'd rather not us go coz i was spotting, we still went ahead with phuket reassuring all that we would take extra care. And extra care we took. We did absolutely nothing except hardcore tanning by the beach( with my baby covered well) , napping in the afternoons ,having long meals just so i could have that extra rest from walking. We hardly bought stuff unless it was a case of happen to see or find. And we watched at least 6 good movies in the comfort of the hotel room. And of course, Grand Slam both finals and soccer most matches. That will be at least 10 hours spent on sports appreciation. And I finished 2 good books at the beach. Its prob one of my best hols only because hubz was very patient about the whole arrangement, no walking, no late nights and lots of breaks in between walking. The only spoiler was my morning sickness. I had bouts of puking during the 4 days, but otherwise everything went well. I need another holiday soon...........

its back!

i've dug up the old books that were hastily stored away on that one dreadful afternoon and began my nightly reads. Not that i dun already know of what to eat , what to do ... but paranoia is driving me a little crazy. this is now my bedside read and this time round... im not skipping a single line esp the what ifs.........

morning sickness is back with a vengeance coupled with severe diarrhoea over the last few days making me almost insanely over the top with joy. call me crazy. but all the discomfort and puking is telling me that the baby is growing well. i remember telling frenz that my last bout of morning sickness will deter me from having another kid. Im taking it all back! the sleepness nights, the constant puking and indigestion......... im loving every moment of it.
we are both hopeful and have a good feeling that things will work out this time. although it seems at times that almost like an unspoken thought hovering between us, no matter what happens, we will always have each other.
this time round, we're embracing every minute of it and taking it one step at a time. so we decided we will go ahead with our plans and bring baby to his first trip to Phuket this Friday and we will come back for CNY with a cool tan.

my baby deserves more.............

im coming clean this time..... i'm pregs again and though it came as a welcoming surprise, im still feeling (very) anxious and paranoid. like who wouldn't.
went to see a new gynae today and he told us things we should have known previously of my condition. we have to be careful all the way to 18 weeks instead of the normal 12 weeks because i have a double uterus. i really want to curse and swear at our previous gynae for not giving us details so much so that we could have more careful then.
but anyway its a new start .... i contemplated not telling anyone till past the 18 weeks so that i can save the explaining should anything untoward happens again. but i decided and im writing this only because whoever reads this .......... i need your prayers for a strong and sticky baby. i promise to do all i can to protect the baby but it will depend on how the baby wants to stick. pls pls pray for me and the baby.

im still not telling unless you get to read this ;)