in search of answers

i have been searching for answers and help to understand. i have done research on the nets and even spoke to others who have gone through the same thing. as they all say, no one really understands unless they've been through the same trauma. i dun blame them. i wouldn't understand whats its like to have lost love too. thats the way the world is.

but i have seeked comfort in reading similar experiences online. And i think it truly helps to know that there are pp going through the same pain and angish. So i went in search of 2 books that was highly recommended. It didnt hurt that i enjoy reading books that made me cry just a teeny bit. And so i found out that Borders suck coz they dont carry the books they should and that all the Sans and Sunny bookstores carry outdated books. Kinokuniya came out tops for their online reservation and stock of titles. I am a Kino convert.

I cant wait to finish before the weekend.
i think i just need to know ..... for closure